I am afraid to lose weight because...

Well, on a strictly superficial level, I am terrified of the saggy skin effect. I am afraid that even after I put in all the work to lose weight and be healthy, I might actually look WORSE when I look in the mirror stark naked. If anyone has any secrets to keeping toned skin after a large weight loss.....PLEASE SHARE! :) I am afraid that after all the work of losing the weight, I will gain it all back (plus some). I am afraid that whatever addiction I might have that keeps me self-destructing my body and keeping me fat, will shift to something else equally or more harmful to me. I am afraid to fail. I am afraid of the new found attention being "thin and beautiful" will hazard. (By no means do I think that thin is solely equivalent to beauty...) I am afraid people will want to know me because they like my appearance, and don't care about, and don't want to know, who I am. I am afraid the person I love (me) will change into someone I don't like. I am afraid that inevitably SOMEONE will comment every time I eat a piece of chocolate. I am afraid of being loved on the condition of my thinness. I am afraid of losing all the beautiful things I have learned about people and life and what really matters, by experiencing this life as the fat girl...